Hello BlueSoup-I can empathize with everything you wrote. I too worry about what I've written-is it going to be considered in a negative way, will it be coherent, will it be interesting, will anyone care, will anyone actually see me, see my post? I am also thinking that I should go back to my hole-in fact, I think that is just what I'm going to do now. But I wanted to let you know that I think your post was open and honest and I appreciate it. I'm sorry that you are struggling with such painful self-doubt-I understand that feeling so well. I hope that you will continue to post on the forum, I am certain that people will welcome your insights and viewpoints. Your thoughts, feelings and words have just as much value as anyone else. I wish you all the best.