Thank you everyone I feel slightly better now.

What I really don't understand about my own mind is why am I so afraid of even the first date. In my head it's like "okay, if I go out with this guy, he is going to expect sex out of me"

It's ONE date. I can never see him again if I don't want to. I guess it just feels like going out on one date is already like.. making a commitment to that one person. Which it is SO not.

Ugh.