I am not trying to get attention....

I just feel so damaged so corrupted... so damaged....

I cannot cope with what I do here I express things beyond my understanding....

I am not a person I am a people and I hurt beyond a person incomplete beyond any sensibility...

I am me... me and myself and I have no agreement no situation where I belong...

....while running terribly confused I hit a wall...!

there is nowhere to hide from this incredible dis-association

...I should die but life is too tempting

I keep trying to run from it..

my illness is no excuse to fall down...

and the collapse is so demanding...

all I have is my effort....

that's all I have