...I don't want to be alone...

and yet it's all I got...!

I have met so many people....
I have embraced so many people...

I have adored so many people...

I have battled with so many people...

I have hated so many people....!

I have even more loved so many people....

I have lost so many people because of death and because of me...

because I am so unfit to be a friend....

the disgrace of such a thing has tormented me...

people are so special

...and I have missed the reality of intimacy

I have died before everyone even met me...