I initially posted this in the depression forum...but it appears this is a more appropriate place because I am not clinically depressed.

18 months ago I broke up with my girlfriend of several years. I was no longer "in love" with her but I have a lot of regret now. I feel like I may have jumped the gun a little bit and maybe with more work I could have regained my love for her. What's worse is that she was my best friend and I miss her terribly; she will have nothing to do with my (and I certainly don't blame her for that). We haven't spoken since the breakup (which was really, really bad). I feel terrible about the way I treated her; I feel terrible about everything I have done. I feel as if I make a ton of mistakes in my life, and that this is one of the biggest regrets I will carry with me to the grave.

The regret has worsened as time has passed. Worst of all, I just miss her companionship. She was a very smart woman...she was the best conversationalist I have ever been with; we are both readers. I miss sharing books, etc. She has moved on and I am very happy for her...I hope that the new man in her life can provide her the happiness that I failed to provide her.

I know I have only myself to blame. I know I should just man up and deal with it. But I just needed to let this out.