Narcissistic maybe??? Lol. All the wonderful skills we have taught "ourselves" and yet it's like many of us share all these common grounds. That really tells me how we go through things in our past that makes us so alike and yet non of us ever would of been here without seeing we have issues. Issues that make us so intune to one another. I finally have been sharing with my T things about me she has yet to hear. It's been about 6 months of sessions once a week and I am finally opening up about my real mind and how it sees the world and all in it. The last two sessions I began this and at the second she started writing everything down. She hasn't done this since our first meeting, what is that?? I also feel that she doesn't understand this much. When we speak of my marriage and communication issues she can go on and on. When we speak of how I look at things in my N ways she looks lost. I explained to her that I sent an email out to a team that I coach parents. The first one was very nasty and attacking but I held off from sending it mostly because my wife said please don't send that. The next day i did the complete opposite, I wrote a very encouraging email that thanked all these parents (who most of them I cannot stand) thanking them for their cooperation and support. She said well look how great that was, I had a choice and I went away from my normal instincts. When I told her I did this as a way to say screw you as they never expect me to write in this way she looked lost again. She them asked so you wrote this to manipulate them and I replied "exactly". Having this Npd thing I understand, I understand many of you here as well. Can the ones who don't share this really understand? If so I think this make them very special and I can only hope to find a T one day that does. This is my second one so do I really want to change only to repeat the same stories over and over? Who knows, as I told her yesterday the person who makes the difference is the ones sitting across from you. Their the ones doing all the work to do better not the T. I look back on this as my N ways and want to stop showing them so often. I really need to stop challenging everyone, even in the most minimal ways.