Good morning,

I understand exactly how you feel. I was sexually and physically abused by my mother. There were times when she beat the crap out of when I was 4. She punched and kicked me until I could do nothing but lie on the floor. Eventually, she would come back to tell me she was cooking my favorite meal or baking a cake for me. In retrospect, I believe she was trying to make her behavior ok by using food. Of course I had a very strange relationship with food. Anorexia has plagued me throughout my life. It's been about 5 years since my weight was problematic.

I feel for you having to deal with maternal abuse. I think there is a wound that goes to the very our core of our being. You can get through these issues. Take it slowly and you can heal. My thoughts are with you.

Regards,

Sabra