Hi, I am new here and am not used to posting anything online, but I feel I need to get some answers. This past week, I feel I have been led to end my life. I have decided to put this off until the beginning of next year to help my parents and to possibly, by some miracle, feel better. I've been fighting bipolar I for 15 years and it never seems to end. I've been on tons of medicine and even had ECT, but the bad always comes back. I felt calm when I finally committed myself to this decision, although that feeling of calm has wavered. I have been in therapy for years with different therapists and seeing the same psychiatrist for 14 years. My question is, if I tell them my plan, seeing as it is not until next year, will they have to have me put into a hospital? I really don't want that, but I don't want to lie either, that makes each session last forever. For this moment, I am safe and willing to take the chance that things will change. Does that count? Thank you for any input you may have.