I used to have anorexia years ago, but after dating my boyfriend I changed. He wanted me to eat more so I did and I feel like I gained a lot of weight from it which makes me uncomfortable. Idk if I actually did gain a lot of weight appearance wise since I have body dysmorphic disorder so certain things seem bad to me, but I don't let people know. I'm doing better with the bdd and I try not to let it affect my life.

So now that my boyfriend makes me eat more and I'm pretty ridiculous now. When we first met I would eat 1/5 of a normal size portion meal and a bit of dessert, but that upset him so I promised I would eat more. I have periods where I'm not interested in eating then periods where I over eat until it hurts. I also inhail my food so I will eat my food quite rapidly with a large portion then eat again shortly a similar portion. I don't purge anymore since I don't want to ruin my teeth, I think that's why I have teeth sensitivity now and it's quite the problem.

I looked it up and it seems like I have binge eating disorder now since I don't purge anymore, but I have periods where I don't eat so I'm not sure. How do I become normal?