Thank you all for taking the time to reply!

I guess I "already know what's wrong with me" to some extent... so from that point I don't "need" a diagnosis (but then again, part of my inner lone wolf might be having a paw in that opinion). I have a rather good self-awareness and a personal interest in psychology/psychiatry, so I do a lot of reading in those subjects as well. I know I can take care of myself, and part of me not seeking help is because I think "there are so many others worse off than me, I don't want to take up their time".

Bringing up insurance is a good point - I haven't dared signing up for any health insurance yet since I didn't know which boxes to fill in I have no diagnosis but leaving out information about my mental health would make the insurance invalid.

I don't think I'd talk much to others about my diagnosis if I were to receive any. My parents have always responded with distrust and anger whenever my mental health made me not "behave properly", and I've been able to hide my mood swings so well that most of my friends would be surprised if I'd say that I've been depressed (gosh, they're so oblivious) but probably agree with the fact that I've been "extra annoying" at some points but no more than that. It would do more harm than good if I allowed them to put a label on me, they'd just think I was seeking attention and sympathy for something made-up. I have zero trust for people responding understanding.

Thanks again for your stories and imputs anyway *bows* it's comforting hearing others experiences with the subject.