I don't want to hijack the thread, but in answer to your question ... *sigh* ...

I'm tired of being punished for doing what is right. It's not that I wouldn't do it all exactly the same way again, but, as the Webgoji always says, "Sometimes we regret the things we have to do, even when they're the right thing to do."

Over the years I've been "that guy"; the one who took the teacher to the principle's office (yep, you read that right) because they were unfairly persecuting someone, the guy that gives the abused woman the safehouse and pays for her divorce, the old knight in shining armor. But my weapons are all used up and my armor is destroyed - to quote The Blue Oyster Cult.

After you get kicked so many times you'll start to flinch. My education suffered because I stood up for what was right (just as an example, one professor gave higher grades to people that went to his church), my career suffered for it and in the process I've drug my wife and kids through homelessness and bankruptcy because I wouldn't keep my head down and just do what I was told to do.

The world isn't fair and might makes right. For 40 years I went out onto the battlefield to fight for other people so that the world could be a little more fair for them, but I was always alone in that fight with nobody to heal my wounds.

And frankly I just can't take it much longer.