One of my former T's made me write out a list of 5 things I would try first when I wanted to. The agreement was that if I gave one a fair try and it didn't work, I would go on to the next one. If I got through all 5 without quashing the urge, THEN I had permission.

Usually something on the list worked and I got through it. Maybe you could try something like that?

((((((((Lily))))))) I'm sorry it's so overwhelming right now.

Love, Candy