Had an appointment with my psychologist today. Actually made me feel worse. And my next appointment is in a month. And I realize that I'll probably only be covered for visits up to the end of January, if I try the weekly appointment thing. Definitely can't afford to pay out of pocket. Sunshine and daisies all around.

It's at times like these that I'm thankful for my counsellor. He really goes out of his way to help.

So my mood dipped. Hard. The last thing I wanted to do was to see people and put up an act. But I stumbled across people I knew several times, and I realized that I actually do have quite a few friends. It's such a far cry from most of my life... people that actually stop to say hello. That actually want to talk to me. I still find it so hard to accept. I still dipped low and acted impulsively, at least after I was alone, but I came back up. I spent time with a friend. I treated myself to a proper dinner. I... actually think I might be a somewhat decent person.

Make-up exam and papers and... ugh. Maybe I'll study a little tonight.