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It’s always been a problem of mine.
Probably because I’m too nice.
People have told me as much, and several online quizzes have said as much as well.
I also used to be a real people pleaser.
That’s probably why I’ve been burned so many times.
I was a bit of a doormat in past relationships.
Even the semi good ones, on multiple occasions past boyfriends have called me their ‘angel.’
Maybe that was a form of sweet talk they liked to say, but I’ve also been told by multiple customers at my job that I have, “Patience of an angel.”
Hmm, so maybe I’m not meant for this world?
It would make sense, it seems a lot of people take my kindness for weakness, and often see my humility and empathetic, caring nature as being phony.
It’s not.
I’m learning not to care so much.
Like I was coming back from working out, no makeup- saw this guy that’s friendly to me and I think likes me and he was polite, but looked like he was taken aback by my face.
I have acne. I used to take this strong drug for it and had clear skin, but it started to mess with my equilibrium and I went off it about a year ago- (Spironolactone), I’ve read some people never get over their equilibrium imbalance as a result. I, for the most part have recovered, but it still bothers me from tie to tome (at one point I thought I had Meneires disorder) So now I’m battling with acne all over again, and used to wear makeup to the gym to hide it, but I don’t that’s really good so I stopped.
I have this new regime I’m doing, along with this special avocado mask I do everyday that seems to be working thus far.
And not smoking helps too.
I’m tired of worrying what others think.
If that makes me a *****, then so be it.
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