I was violently raped orally when I was 16, and when I told my friends they were mad at me because one of them had a crush on the guy. I felt guilty, ashamed, and worthless. I never talked about it for 20 years until 2 years ago I told my therapist about it. We spoke briefly, and I acted like it didn't really affect me that much. But recently I keep thinking about it. I have never stopped feeling guilty, ashamed, and worthless. Could the assault still be causing me so much pain? How can something that happened 22 years ago still be affecting me? I could just be overreacting- I thought I was over this!