i wish...

... i was important

... i was special as i used to think

... i was special to someone

... i was loved by a man thing that never happened

... i had a friend i could count on and hang out

... my house wasnt this hell i live in

... i was able to have a job and feel im good at something

... my therapist would actually give a **** about me

... i could say im pretty awesome and not be just joking

... someone would miss me

... i could actually be happy

but im just this freak that would never be normal caz she had the worst parents ever and will never be loved, missed or matter at all