Feeling really stressed out that I should be looking for a job but am uncertain as to whether, even if I got a job, that I would actually show up for it and be able to function. That's how bad my depression and feelings of insecurity are right now.

I know a job would be in my best interest right now - - just terrified about the prospect of it. I don't think my husband understands. I don't want my life to turn to sh--t, but I feel like that's where I'm at right now.