Dear beth0226,

So sorry that you were raped. But please stop feeling guilty, ashamed and worthless!! Why should you feel that?? If there is anyone who should be feeling that....it's the low-life rapists and your selfish, self-centred *****y pseudo friends.

I can't believe that your friends chose to believe a bunch of good for nothing rapists whom they have never talked to, than their own friend whom they interact on a day to day basis....just because one of them had a crush on one of the rapist.

I think the reason you never managed to talk and instead bury it deep inside your because of the negative reaction of your pseudo friends. Many psychologists believe the initial reaction of the person a survivor of a sex assault talks to can really affect and shape the way they feel about the incident.

Just wondering....why didn't you tell your parents? They could have got the help you needed. Not blaming you....just wondering .

And please don't blame yourself for not "getting over it". Sex assault heals with time....but only when you work with a T to heal. It can't heal on its own.
It's like, when there is a tumor inside our body....it doesn't heal with time. It only heals when you give the right medicine and surgically remove.

Your sex assault incident has been imprinted as a tumor in your mind. Take your time to heal and ultimately you'd be able to throw the incident out of your life and move on!

Request you to check out these articles. I was sexually abused in my teens and some articles really helped me...mebbe it wd help you too -
Your Online Counselor - Articles on Sexual Harassment and Assault

Good luck!!