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Originally Posted by falsememory7
So, when I was younger, I was sexually taken advantage of for 6-7 years by a very intimate family member. After a couple years of therapy, and quitting my self-harming (cutting, etc.) addiction, I've finally gotten some control over my anxiety, depression and flashbacks, and had sex *willingly* for the first time to this guy that I've been seeing for about a month. I feel happy that I've been comfortable enough to do this after 8 years, but I'm also scared as to where this leads. I've never been intimate with anyone before, let alone emotionally attached, and I'm scared that opening myself and my heart will also open up my past, and erase all of the progress that I've made so far to becoming happy. I know that PTSD and Depression can't be gotten rid of, but simply managed, and I've had days where I felt deeper in depression than ever before, but I can deal with it better. For anyone else who has PTSD, or has been r**ed, have you ever let someone in close to you? I'M SO SCARED, and I feel like I'm on the verge of an anxiety attack. I'm so scared.  |
That's a big step for you (((falsememory7)))
Only advice I have for this is a word of caution, don't open up to him too much, too soon. I made this big mistake several times and it just pushes them away. Its best to just put on your best face until you are closer, and known each other for longer. Once you get to know them better, they are much more understanding of your story and instead of pushing them away, it draws them closer. Because they realize that you are being vulnerable, and may let you in on some things that happened to them in the past.
Hope this helps and wish you best of luck in your new relationship!