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Originally Posted by troubledarling
Hey guys, have any of you ever wanted something but when it came down to it your habit or depression stopped you? That's the story of my life, I want friends and a life worth living but every time opportunity striks my depression kicks in along with fear and mistrust. So in the end I'm left with myself and loneliness like always. Do any of you tend to do that? If so feel free to share your srory.
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for me no my mental disorders did not stop me from dating, having friends. quite the opposite actually because when ever I felt any emotions like sadness, fear, anxiety what ever .... I would dissociate (shut down, go numb, depersonalize or dissociate into one of my alters) then I was able to continue on functioning as if nothing was wrong, like I was ok.
example last night my wife and I went out. I was a bit anxious because the twins were battling ear infections and an upper respiratory infection. I am also in my depression phase of my bipolar disorder. I dissociated ....shut down those feelings, numbed myself to the anxiety and depression and was able to leave the house with out a problem, just as if I didnt have any anxiety nor depression. At the restaurant it was quite crowded and I got a bit of anxiety and depressed again. I started dissociating again....spacing out, numbing myself, shutting down those feelings and then I was ok to continue eating my meal and continued on with what turned out to be a fantastic evening with my wife..
for me dissociation is a coping tool that enables me to continue functioning as if nothing is wrong, as if nothing is triggering me, as if I dont have depression and anxiety problems...