Thanks for your support. I think you are right about how my friends reacted affecting me. I felt like it was my fault- I was drunk and I let him walk me home. Instead he just left me on the ground between 2 houses a block from my house. That is also why I didn't tell my parents- now I wish that I had. The assault completely changed my life. I became a different person and I turned to alcohol then drugs. I don't do any of that any more, instead I'm on a bunch of meds. I'm not sure why this has come up again, but I'm feeling horrible about it. I'm really embarrassed to tell my T about it because we did talk about it briefly. She may think that I'm over it. I feel weird bringing it up again.