Alexandra,

She talked at one of our first sessions about false memories. She doesn't work with someone unless they have definite memories, whether partial or full; complete pictures or snippets; but they must be the patient's own memories. Having someone else tell the patient that they experienced something is not acceptable to her. She was very clear on that and I have no worries about that. She is not looking for something that isn't there; she is helping me to get to where I can allow myself to see and talk about what is there. My worry has actually always been that she won't believe me or will think it is not important and I have shared that with her. She was wonderful about that. What's not to believe, she said? And she has tried to bring it out for discussion but I have not been able to do that.

I don't question her methods or her trustworthiness or her intentions. I'm just nervous because it is unfamiliar territory. But I am the one who is asking to go there. I'm tired of living with the fear, the shame, the general mistrust, the loneliness.

I don't think I'll go to your site because I don't think it woud be supportive or applicable, but thank you for sharing it with me.

ECHOES