Yes it's very very hard, but I have a lot of goals that I strive for which is why I think I can face so many things. I've never had a safe home in my entire life and I want a good job so badly so I can live in a clean safe environment. I know I have the power to do so, it's just harder for me than the average person.

Don't feel bad that you aren't able to work or go to school. I had to quit several jobs before due to manic episodes and I failed two whole years of college. All my friends have bachelor degrees and are in amazing schools while I'm still doing prereqs at a community college. Life can be hard, but if you remain positive it's a lot less harder