Hello,

For almost the last two years my boyfriend has been struggling with depression. As difficult as times have been, the ups and downs, the emotional roller coaster, I have made a commitment to myself and to him that I am here for the long haul. I truly love him and feel that he is on the right track to moving forward.

My question to other loved ones and caregivers, but maybe more importantly to those who have suffered from depression, I am wondering what insight you can give me. For those who struggle with depression, do you realize you are pushing your loved ones away? Why is it easier to be around those you don't know too well instead of the ones that love you unconditionally? Seems like those that don't know you too well, get to see a fun, relaxed side of you, not the heartache and pain.

Sometimes it feels like my boyfriend has forgotten about me, that he doesn't realize him pulling away and being quiet and alone, makes me feel lonely. i understand he cannot be there like he use to be, and I'm hopeful in time he will be able to be, but it's hard. I'm always here for whenever he needs to talk or needs support, but I just wonder if he knows what it does to me when he pulls away.