I could have written your post, purplemystery. I don't understand how to be vulnerable about my internal world without the other person growing tired or getting frustrated or worse, just abandoning me altogether. It's so incredibly frustrating! I don't know if you feel this way, but to me, I sometimes feel like it takes so much for me to finally trust someone and then that moment I think I'm finally there, the rug is pulled out from under me and it is like what I said all along seems to be proven right: I'm too much.

I'm sorry you're experiencing this with your T. I know how it feels as my T told me of his frustration as well. I feel like telling my T I told you so. Cause I told him that I can be difficult (not that I'm intentional about that) and I was afraid of becoming too much for him.

I'm sorry - I really don't know how to work through this either right now