Sorry you've been thru so much medicalfox. It's really so tough when family lets you down.....if you can't turn to family....who else??

Studio apartment sounds like a great idea. Is living in motel cheap and safe.....you wouldn't have to sign lease...i'm guessing.

Do you have the permit to work or....are you in a position to work? It can be really helpful to work....even if it's really insignificant. It brings money, would develop confidence and you'd have some responsibility to keep you busy everyday....an empty mind is a devil's workshop.

Good luck dear!