I went off because I was better, but you're right, I have slipped and felt like I was really losing it - thinking about death all the time and stayed in bed most of the weekend. But, I had SO much trouble going off of Effexor - had horrible side effects, and the previous anti-dep I took (cipralex), made me very suicidal. So, I decided I didn't want to keep poisoning my body. But, it's true I have fallen again, and was really starting to spiral down - don't want to risk losing my job like I did last time. So, I have decided to take St. John's wort - have you ever taken it? today I have been ok with it...