I look at T more closely when he's not looking at me, too. Sort of when you look at a friend while their talking and you stop to REALLY look at them. You realize all the small details like the freckles on their face, if they have wrinkles, the way their dimples pop out when they smile.

It's like you take time to really SEE them.

It's definitely not anything sexual. It's like just having a chance to look at them for who they are without the pressure of them looking back at you while you look.