I know it's weird, considering how long I tried to get her to talk, get her to try marriage counselling, get her to stay…she refused all of it. She ripped the heart out of my chest and I never got a satisfactory as to why she couldn't even try. I'm starting to hate her for it.

I've spent the last 2 months feeling like I'm in an emotional freezer. Nothing moves, nothing changes and it only gets more and more uncomfortable.

The only time I feel like I might get some satisfaction is when I consider divorcing her for this. I'm stuck, broke and rejected. It just seems like
I won't get out of this mess until I sell the house and break ties with her…not that life will be great afterwards, just won't feel trapped and used by a person I thought I could trust.