Thanks, I'm always so against writing letters. And yet, I know it will probably help. It's just difficult to be honest about how I feel. I hate that people are alive now who could help me out with all of this if they would only admit that they dropped the ball, instead of being so adamant that there were no signs. I'm not blaming them for everything, but taking responsibility would make things a lot easier for me. Part of me feels like until that issue gets sorted out (and there's no way I can force anyone into accepting anything they refuse to) it will never really make a difference.
Ugh, and that opinion is what will keep this all swirling around in my mind. Sorry this is sounding so depressing right now, I dont' even know why I'm writing it all...