Last night I smoked too much weed ripped a bong too hard, which I made it possible for people with neurological problems like mine. I am being tested for paraneoplasticsyndrome and I smoked so much. My eyes were open according to all the people I knew in the room, but I couldn't see and my perception was dead. It was like that one part of my brain died literally then restarted. I didn't say yeah I am too high and imagining. No I am currently still high from it and it's alot less intense, but the brain patterns in my head are ****ed. I made so many poor choices with drugs without thinking I knew this would happen someday. Now my brain is sorta like a vegetable, but only part that was damaged the most was my sight and sensory info on sight, plus I am very numb. My brain blacked out and people found me in the street crawling or rolling on the ground out in the cold. I wasn't aware to me I probably went brain dead and my brain restarted because the signals got ****ed bad. I am still going to see a neuro Dr. what I still experience is very bad depersonalization to the point that everything isn't real. I feel like I am always stuck in Alice in Wonderland zone. Weird shapes letters and numbers are everywhere. My mind feels like a tv switching channels alot. Idk if this will ever go away. I can say this is close to being alive, but dead literally in a sense that I can use my brain in the other areas but this part of my brain got nuked and it is very hard to recover right now. It's definitely eye opening experience and I hope no one ends up where I just ended up. I am going to see a Dr. soon hopefully I can get my brain back. I do too much for people and when I got overwhelmed I killed whatever part of my brain I have left. I just want a normal life.