She has no idea what she wants, or at least that's what she tells me. She assured me a few times she just wants a separation, not a divorce…but that could be just her hedging her bets.

She's always friendly on the phone. Told me twice she misses me, also told me she still loved me, hugged me a couple times but then she runs back to her rental and lives her life over there like a single person.

I have no idea what to make of this but even as I build a life of my own I hate this loneliness and rejection.