I wrote a book about my pets and other animals, published it online and bought copies to give to all of my relatives and friends, rather than letting them buy it themselves! I spent a lot of money to do this. What was I thinking????
It took me five years to do, but I wrote a book on wild horse activism and did not publish it. At least not yet. I would have to redo it to publish it. I may or may not do that. After I finished, had all of my "support people" disappear, however I kicked two of the negative ones out of the project before I finished and I'm glad I did. Never do a book that depends on other people whom you don't know if you can trust. I trusted the wrong people! I also wrote a book, along with my daughter, about my family's 50 year business in CA - for family members to buy and it was wonderful. My first published book was an original resource directory for my state's Dept. of Health. It was good and many agencies, clinics and individuals got copies of it at no cost. I write poetry prose to express my feelings. I'm proud of all of these but they were not REAL books as I see it, not published by a REAL publisher; they were published " in a small way," I feel.
I am now considering a Bipolar Blog but not so sure I can do it. I write in a journal every month to keep track of where I am and how I'm feeling,sometimes daily. Very depressing!

I want to make art more than anything, but I cannot do it right now, am in a depressive condition, bad but not suicidal (Lamictal is being increased).