After my T betrayed/abandoned me on friday it has sent me into a downwards spiral. I was suicidal and SI'd alot in september but the suicidal feelings left in early october, and i SI'd alot less. And I haven't SI'd in a month now until last night. But this hurt has spiralled me right back into suicidal feelings and SI. I just I really need someone to be here for me right now. But I have no families and all my friends are out of town on vacation and I'm all alone.