I can really relate to what you're saying. There have been many times in my life where I have been constantly focused on what other people think of me to a point where it was ridiculous. Like always wanting to wear make-up and look nice so people will like me and then later worrying people might think that I was vain, shallow and high maintenance by always dressing really nice and wearing makeup. I'm laughing right now because that was so silly.

I'm finally starting to not care what other people think of me...to a certain degree. I definitely still want to be nice to everyone and be considered a good person but when I worry that sometimes I do let other people treat me like a doormat. I'm trying to be assertive and express my feelings. I've been thinking lately that maybe they key is to not care what other people think about you but worry how other people feel about your actions. That kind of keeps my thinking in perspective.

I do find it weird that a guy would be put off because he saw you without makeup and you had acne. There's lots of decent guys out there with realistic beauty standards.