It is so easy to hate it, to want to run away from it ~ I hear you. I liked reading the progress you have made; it gives me hope as I haven't come any further than a couple of mere baby steps. It takes time, I lose patience, get frustrated, and as you, get discouraged feeling like it is always going to be a battle. Then I realize that thought is only going to deprive me of the good days and times in between and would rather have some than none at all. I'm trying to look at it as though I had a bad day instead of I'm a failure, but we all feel that way at times. Embrace that proud feeling while you keep working on your personal goals and boundaries and enjoy your new hobby!