Hey, this is my first post. I want to try to deal with an issue I've had since I was a teen. I always felt like I was heterosexual. As early as I can remember I had a crush on girls. But I also grew up in a very old fashioned religious family. I remember when I was about 6 or 7 my dad told me to never be gay. My parents always talked about gays and thought there was something wrong with them.

I started having gay fantasies when I was about 15. It's weird because I always masturbated to pictures of girls when I was 13 or 14. Then one day I remember coming home and going on the computer and looking at naked men.

I've had a couple girlfriends, but I feel like I need to work through this before I can have a meaningful relationship with a woman. It also keeps me from opening up to people in other areas of my life. I've always felt that something is wrong with me, because I know I'm ashamed of these fantasies. Sometimes I still have them.

Am I weird or is this more normal than I think...?