I can understand your feeling and I to have been urged to SI, even today but I am trying to hold out. I am living One Hour at a time! If I can make it through this hour it makes it all the easier to make it through the next. Feeling alone is hard and scary, nothing worse then being alone in a crowd. There are others like us out there and you can always find someone to lean on for support who understands what you're going through. You have already taken the first step by realizing you need help and then asking for it!