And you breaking the contract with her ... Kinda shooting yourself in your own foot don't you think?

I mean, I've been exactly where you are and sometimes we are truly our own worst enemies and stand in the way of our own recovery!

She may have seen this as an attempt to manipulate her and is pretty much letting you know that she isn't going to play that game with you.

As much as we'd like to believe it's all about us, it isn't ... Even in therapy ... Therapists are people too and have other commitments - personal & professional - that simply makes it impossible for them to be there for us 24/7 ... It's unreasonable of us to expect that of them too.

That's why there are 24/7 hotlines, emergency rooms, 12 step meetings, group therapy, PsychCentral, etc. ... We have to take the initiative to utilize other resources when our therapists can't be there for us at any given time. Make yourself a back-up plan & have it readily available to you.

Don't beat yourself up over this though ... It takes time to come to these realizations, but once we do, it makes the process a little smoother and less intense for us.

We have to become the masters of our own fate and not expect others to be the ones to do it all for us otherwise we never become independent and self sufficient.

Nor would we ever make any progress on this journey of healing & recovery.