I think you are really aware the mood you're in & proud of you. It's hard to tell. But you've been mindful & experienced much.
I easily know when I'm depressed. Because that's the big black hole for me. I do have trouble knowing when it's time to get help, I get so mixed & irritable & the sky is falling when I'm depressed.
Harder for me to accept is when I'm in the hypo/mania - like finally I feel happy busy busy, I deserve to feel this great after what hell been thru! Even tho that's a risky place to be for various reasons, I'm far more disconnected from reality & my true self when in depression.
Not sure if that made sense nor why I'm wide awake at 4:20am...