Ok, so i went swimming today with my friend lauren and her friend nicko (whose a guy) and we both know him, but i dont know him very well, we dont hang out unless lauren is here and since shes in Cali and im in Connecticut thats not very often. Ok. So getting to the point we went swimming but didnt have suits, so we wore pants and white shirts, my friend took her shirt off, no shame, and i after awhile decided to also.

Thing is i dont know if i should've because i have a boyfriend, however, absolutely nothing happened at all, it was all just innocent fun but i have a huge guilt complex and i dont know if what i did would be considered cheating or not. Im kind of upset, but i didnt hit on nicko or anything and whenever i came out of the water i stayed covered. Am i worrying over nothing? I feel pretty pathetic asking about this on here but i didnt know where else to ask. Hopefully someone can help me straighten this out. I love my boyfriend very much, we've been together for two years despite the fact that he slept with another girl. I love him to much to give up on the relationship, but it seems soemtimes i just do things like this, and i feel bad about it. Right now in my life im trying to define some boundaries in all areas of my life, but i dont know how. I have already been assaulted in the past, so with relationships its really hard to define boundaries because i want to make everyone happy, including myself but i feel really pushed and pulled. Its really hard, im only 20 and im still young so i guess I have time to figure it out but anyways....im really confused and was hoping someone would give me some peace of mind.

xo

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