Thanks for your responses! My husband knows I'm bipolar, but I don't think he understands about mania. He just thinks he's really getting lucky right now.

I have some toys, and I can't stop masturbating... when my kids are at school, I've been doing it for hours on end. But it seems like I keep taking it to a more dangerous level. I've been letting men from craigslist tell me to do things, like write nasty, horrible things on my private areas, and then send them pictures of it...I worry that I might totally lose control and agree to meet up with some of these men and have sex with them...I don't want to. But I feel so out of control.
I'm afraid my husband would be disgusted by my secrets.