Interesting session with T today.

My wife came in so he could get her perspective on things. It's really amazing to hear how she deals with it all and what a grip she has on everything. Also it's great to hear about all the support she really does give me, even though I don't always recognize it.

She brought up the fact that I've been really hung-up on getting an accurate diagnosis. Her and the T both agreed that it's more important to make me feel better and not care so much about the Dx. However, my T did state that he believes it is BP, he just doesn't know where exactly on the BP spectrum to put me. And just that, makes me feel good. My T is a licensed Psychologist with a PhD from the University of Minnesota, and has been meeting with me for several weeks now. I feel very comfortable with his professional opinion.

Now I feel like I can move on somewhat. But I still have anxiety concerning my pdoc. I wish my T has an MD under his belt too so that he could manage my meds. I've been on Depakote for 10 weeks now and haven't had blood levels checked. Shouldn't I be concerned about that? Or am I just suppose to take care of that on my own?

Anyway, it was great to have my wife there and hear her perspective in that environment, but it was hard at the same time. She does so much for me and I feel like I don't give her what she deserves.

Anyway, a good session indeed.