I'm glad you were able to let her help. I'm glad that she is able to be there for you. (hugs)
when I lose hope, I often find myself placing it in my T's hands... I let them take on the burden of hope so it's not lost forever. But that only works when I trust the particular T. I trust my current T, and putting my trust in her to help me stay together has been really helpful. I can't do it forever, but at the moment, it's a big relief. I often worry about my hopelessness, and sink lower because I get down on myself for being so hopeless.