I don't know if anyone else is going through this but most of my family and the few friends I had are turning away from me and leaving me to deal with my depression and my life on my own. I guess they figure when I'm better and back to normal they will come around again. I have absolutely no emotional support. When I do express myself to people and try to share what has been going on, they give me lectures and the "get off your butt and get moving" talk. They talk about themselves and others who have had challenges and overcome. I know they mean well but they are not suffering with major depression. I had a complete breakdown and was not functioning. I was ready to end it. My BF wanted to hospitalize me but I refused to go. Two people know this but have still chosen to ignore me. I am beyond hurt. I feel betrayed and unloved. Everyone is going on with their lives enjoying themselves and they are not giving me a second thought. Everyone thinks I am lazy and irresponsible and a bum. I already have zero self esteem and feel like I'm a loser and the way everyone treats me just makes me feel even worse. I am tired of people judging me and criticizing me. They have not walked in my shoes. They don't know what they are talking about. I don't go around telling people what they have done wrong and what they need to do. Why can't people just offer love and compassion and emotional support, what is so hard about that? I am ready to cut everyone out of my life. I feel that they are fairweathered people who only want to be around me when things are going ok. The minute I'm in a hole and am not myself and am struggling, everyone runs away and stays away. Am I wrong to be angry? I am really ready to cut people off. I have nobody but my BF and that will eventually end too. But I am soooo hurt. I don't even want to go on but I won't do that to my BF. But I hate living.