I am so freakin tired of this episode and this depakote, my son constantly says I look high, I cant stay awake, I have no energy to do anything, my husband is completely frustrated with me. I'm seriously thinking about inpatient because even though I dont want to die I want to shut myself off and go away for a while. I'm just tired. I keep having crying spells cause I'm lonesome, even when there's people here, I dont know what I'm going to be like left all alone this week. I just feel so bad and I'm tired of feeling bad. I'm hanging on, I see my ther tomorrow and I'll try to see my pdoc as well before Wed. Somethings gotta give.