Liverbird, you need to go to the emergency room. You may need stitches and you are a danger to yourself. I know must feel really alone but that is the depression lying to you. You can always mend fences with relatives. It's never too late. And you would be greatly missed here. Please seek help.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
"Each morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most." -Buddha