You are correct. I have choose to stay with her yet I have yet to find anything of interest outside of our relationship and my weekends are consumed with us facilitating getting together. As for my job, I lucked into something I can't just leave and find at another company as its based on experience not education. So in short, my fear of not being able to support myself greatly out ways my lack of love in my current position. But anyway, I realize now that I have become the person who keeps complaining about the same thing over and over without trying to change it. I retracted the majority of my previous post and will try not to whine about things I'm not activly working to change in the future. , thanks