I'm trying to understand what is really going on. I don't know if I am dissociating, and I don't want to be influenced by her. I almost feel like, if I say I have suspicions, then it is just because of her influences though!

Also, 1914sierra, isn't it normal for people to go into their memories like that? I have gotten lost in my own "Lala land" (as my mother called it) many times, and I do so regularly. I call it auto-piloting now though (sounds less childish), and I've heard other people refer to this as well before...