Thank you all for responding. You gave me so much to think about. It helped pull me out of my tunnel vision I get. Sometimes I feel like I'm acting like a brat & another part of me says I have every right to. It gets confusing.
My T did phone me tonite Sunday, to talk & she told me how she was delayed. I told her how sorry I was to call on a weekend knowing that she needs her own time w/ her family & herself. That part feels very guilty.
We did talk about this Phantom email I apparently sent & how that part is working on its own. It just really freaks me out wondering what else I'm doing that I don't really remember. It frightens me & she said there's probably other parts that will interact this way, kind of under the radar. I don't like that idea @ all. I don't like knowing I'm not in total control of myself.
Thank you everyone for all your comments & I'm glad I posted here to get a different perspective which is what I was looking for